Ok, so maybe I’m a bit of a whiner…
Mr. Navy and I got into a small “fight” (he doesn’t like to use that word), which is completely normal for all couples, especially those in their first few months of cohabitation. However, I think that sometimes the reason for ours have a deeper meaning. I think that I spend too much time focusing on the things I don’t have, the things I’ve given up, and the things I know I’ll continue to give up as the future progresses—those thoughts begin to cloud my brain so much that I lash out about the smaller insignificant things.
The next day after the fight, Mr. Navy walked in with flowers; a beautiful bouquet that he picked out, especially for me.
I may not have anywhere to wear the fancy clothes anymore. I may be separated from my friends (and from human contact on a day to day basis). I may skip the makeup daily and stare sadly at the collection of cute shoes in my closet that go unworn. I may not have a corporate job that makes me feel important and busy. I may wake up in the morning with nowhere to go and nothing to do except pull the sheets up and arrange the fancy pillows against the headboard. I may not have designer duds and fancy restaurants to wear them to.
But, I do have these flowers. I have these beautiful daisies, lilies and purple mums from a wonderful man who does think I’m important. These flowers represent the bigger picture—the fact that although I may not be changing the great big world as a whole, I am in fact changing someone’s little world, for the better.
And one day, maybe I’ll have all of those things again that I crave and miss. But until then, I take the flowers from Mr. Navy any day.
so sweet. I appreciate your love for him. I get your commitment to seeing what's there outside of what you have always known. it's a huge thing to alter the occurrence of ones world. it's no small thing to make a difference in someones life, to be a loving contribution, to give love freely.
ReplyDeleteon a side note. you do have a place to where those shoes. you do have a cause to feel beautiful and sexy. when you are that, you interact with him as that and I'll tell you, every man loves a sexy woman. get that a woman is sexy not because others say so, but because she does.