Always Wanting What You Can't Have

I always think the grass is greener over there. It' probably the worst characteristic of mine. I want what I don't have and miss what I had and left.

Tonight, I'm missing CT.

I didn't leave because I didn't like the cold or felt bored by my friends. I didn't leave because of my job or school. I left because my home life was not great, my Dad was sick, and maybe I thought by leaving I could make it better. Maybe if I wasn't around to see it every day, he wouldn't be sick.

Well, he continued to be sick. He passed, and here I am. 3000 miles away from the life I used to have--and I can't help but miss it.

I miss those few friends who always made me feel special. Those friends that I experienced so much with. They are still there, magically, almost waiting for me to return. They miss me and speak of me each day, like I've simply gone on vacation and will be returning soon.

I know my life is in the military right now. And I wouldn't give up Mr. Navy for anything. But I'm beginning to think that maybe my life needs to continue, back in that chilly place I called home.

To be continued...